I have always said that it takes three weeks for things to "click" with a new job, whether you're passing out fries at McDonalds or putting out your first issue of a magazine. Well, I didn't post any Deep Thoughts yesterday about my Chicago update, not because I was drowning in depression but because things were finally clicking for me. I found my niche, fell into my rhythm. I found my place.
Maybe things would have been wonderful in Chicago. But you know what? They're going pretty darn well in Indianapolis. I receive constant feedback from my boss about the quality of my work and my value to this company. I have the power to start new projects and the authority to carry them out. I have a genuine interest in science for the first time in my life, and coming from someone who barely understands the H2O compound, that is quite a feat. And it's all happening in a city full of activity (not to mention great shopping malls) waiting for me to make it mine.
Don't get me wrong. I would have loved Chicago. But I would have loved it for different reasons. Chicago reasons. I love Indianapolis for Indianapolis reasons. One set is no better than the other. A choice is always as good as you make it to be.
Some people are afraid of choices. They are so enamored with their possibilities that they end up immobile, too afraid to "limit" themselves to one purpose. That's no way to live life.
I want a strong career. I want to explore other pockets of the world. But I also want to get married and have a baby before I'm thirty. Some say I can't do both. To that I say, maybe you can't. But just watch out for me.
How does this all come back to Jesus, who has managed to find his way into the title of my last two posts? I don't know. But I thank him for the path my life has taken, just the same.
great post, Frema... brought a little tear to my eye :)
glad to hear that everything is going swimmingly (a little Charley Kerlin flashback for ya) in Indy... but we miss you in Rensselaer!
hope to see you soon!
Posted by: Becky | July 01, 2005 at 12:11 AM
We Methodists might say "Thank you, Jesus" or maybe "Thank you, tricky Jesus."
mjd
Posted by: Anonymous | July 03, 2005 at 10:56 PM
Just lost my posting somehow... LOVE this posting. You're on the right track frema.
Choices, career, babies, it's all good.
-- Di
Posted by: Anonymous | July 08, 2005 at 11:55 AM