Because after the big ole stink I made about wanting to wait to start our family, I thought I was pregnant this week. I was crampy. Gassy (and there's been no spinach dip in almost a month!). I've gone to bed the last couple of nights with painful headaches, and there have been fleeting signs of nausea, and there was that one time last month....
I thought I was pregnant and I was excited.
So we bought another pee stick, despite Aunt Flo's visit two weeks ago and the fact that I have a very recent negative already under my belt. This one produced a second negative result, which reduced me to crying just like the baby we don't have.
Luckily, Luke knew immediately how to remedy the situation:
"Want some ice cream?"
Proof enough he's the smartest man in the world.
I'm still reeling from the idead that I spent my whole life trying NOT to get pregnant and living blindly with the middle school doctrine that if you had unprotected sex just ONCE, you'd get pregnant. (I also distinctily recall being 8 and telling my mother I was pregnant--I kissed the next-door neighbor boy)
Fast forward to age 32 and deciding that we would TRY to get pregnant.
I cried many times over those periods. I know how you feel.
At the same time: I tested negative 12 times before we got the positive test. I think I peed on a stick every day that first month.
I wish you the right time and the result you're hoping for.
Posted by: Lizzy in the City | June 30, 2006 at 01:29 AM
Yes, Luke=smartest man in the world.
Posted by: Silly Hily | June 30, 2006 at 12:40 PM
Why do our female bodies traumatize us so?
I'm sorry you were disappointed by your pee stick. That's one of the worst let downs ever, especially when your body is playing tricks on you and acting like it's pregnant.
Posted by: Britt | June 30, 2006 at 03:50 PM
Wow... Luke is smart.
Posted by: Number Twelve | June 30, 2006 at 04:37 PM
I love times like that when I'm reminded that I married the perfect person.
Here's to next month...
Posted by: isabel | July 01, 2006 at 12:37 PM
I hate that you cried! Just wait until that stick reads positive one day sister. ;) Try not to get your hopes up too much so you're not let down so hard. I LOVE YOU!!
Posted by: Sambo V. | July 01, 2006 at 03:46 PM
Pee sticks are evil, and for some reason the female body thrives on traumatizing itself. Keep your chin up. Big points for Luke. :0)
Posted by: Lost a Sock | July 02, 2006 at 02:01 AM
Let things happen naturally. It'll happen when the time is right.
Posted by: butterflygirl | July 02, 2006 at 08:02 PM
hey ... ummm ... if you had aunt flo visiting 2 weeks ago, you were probably ovulating. Not that you know me, but I highly recommend the book 'taking charge of your fertility' to help you get a really good understanding of what's going on with your body. Seriously - you'll never have to pee on a stick again to know if you're pregnant.
Hi, btw.
Posted by: s@bd | July 03, 2006 at 11:23 AM
Ice cream is the only solution. You know...that or chocolate brownies with cream cheese icing and crumbled oreos on top. Those also work wonders.
But I know...I understand...I am a veteran of the negative. And like Lizzy up there said...it's unbelievable how much of our late teens/early twenties we devote to NOT getting pregnant. How it seems that if we have unprotected sex JUST ONCE then we will birth a mountain of babies. Oh how that isn't the case.
But as long as things with your lady bits are in working order then just give it a little time. If it takes longer than a year or you know at the outset that there are issues to contend with then you have permission to ignore all the advice of "relax, it'll happen when its supposed to" and break out the steel toed stilettos.
But I have confidence that won't be the case with you and Luke. Just enjoy being newlyweds... remember, the rest is just icing!!
xoxo
Posted by: PaintingChef | July 05, 2006 at 12:26 PM