When I was lying on the living room floor last night, clutching my stomach, begging God to make the pain stop, all I could think was, "Please don't let me throw up, please don't let me throw up."
Of course, that practically guaranteed a quickie with the porcelain throne, but it was upon remembering the return of Weight Loss Wednesday that I realized regurgitating my lunch of spaghetti and Italian sausage just might work to my advantage.
WEIGHT FROM TWO WEEKS AGO: 136
CURRENT WEIGHT: 137
POUNDS TO GOAL WEIGHT: 12
I'd like to think it was self-control that kept me from gaining more than one pound over the course of two weeks, but getting sick the night before your weigh-in helps, too.
Bad foods consumed over the holiday; where to start? Since last week's gluttonous report, there's been more Baker's Square goodness in honor of my mother's forty-sixth birthday, for which I generously scarfed down two slices of Oreo pie, pizza and chips in honor of Jack's big Number One, beef sandwiches drenched in gravy, and plenty of Mike's Hard Lemonade to bring in the New Year.
Needless to say, I never made it to the gym.
I can't tell you how pissed I am for forking over sixty-nine dollars of Luke's and my hard-earned money to a facility I didn't step foot in for a whole entire month. I can't tell you how many times I've considered ending our membership and vowing to kick this junk-food habit on my own, or join Weight Watchers again, or read Fast Food Nation, or just stop eating so damn much. I love the idea of the gym, but I don't love the gym. I don't like getting up at five o'clock to go, and I don't like going after work, and I don't like coming home sweaty and I don't like showering more than once a day. Sometimes I don't even manage the one.
If this were October or November, I might just say "Fuck it" and spend the extra dough on cable. But it's January, the third day into a New Year, and I'm not going to give up. At least not today.
I have tried and failed many times to develop a relationship with the gym, but it just never sticks. My husband and I have fallen into this routine of going for a brisk, one hour walk on Sat and Sun mornings. It's not much, but we genuinely enjoy walking around the city and having the time to talk and enjoy each other's company. Maybe if we could put two elliptical machines outdoors, next to each other...
Posted by: kelley | January 03, 2007 at 12:27 PM
Get through it one day at a time. I'm going this afternoon for the first time since like, a week before Christmas. And I don't want to. But I know I must.
I also signed up yesterday (again) for Weight Watchers Online, because I lost almost forty pounds with it before, and I have to have some form of control or I'll go wild.
Lotta's got a group started which I'm hoping will inspire me. Even if you don't have a lot to lose, it will feel good to be on track with other people!
Posted by: Nat | January 03, 2007 at 01:51 PM
Bahhhh! I am completely and undeniably claiming the blame for the stomach flu (does that mean I get to take the weight loss, too?) I'm so sorry you unknowingly joined our house in the depths of Throw-up Hell. My heart goes out to you.
Posted by: Molly | January 03, 2007 at 03:41 PM
Like I told Lost A Sock, this stomach flu must be sweeping the nation! I too was excited about the prospect of some "easy" weight loss, but I am now feeling better and have been more than making up for it. Good luck!
Posted by: Stacey | January 03, 2007 at 04:17 PM
Hey sister! ;) The New Year is a perfect time to set new goals. Maybe you can set a time for just twice a week to start for the gym so you don't feel overwhelmed. As far as eating, I liked to snack way too much and have been doing that over the holidays. What I'm doing now and what I've done in the past to control it, is not to eat after a certain time, say 8:00p.m. It's really hard the first few days, but that prevented me going to bed with a full stomach. Pretty soon I won't even think about eating/snacking at night. The results are groovy! ;) In any case, best wishes to you. YOU LOOK GREAT! ;)
Posted by: Sissy | January 03, 2007 at 06:53 PM
I hope that you are feeling better now. Going to exercise classes worked for me. Belonging to a group encouraged commitment on my part. If we did not go to class, it was like letting not only ourselves down but failing our classmates as well. Anyway this is a new year, and you can have new start. Take care.
Posted by: mjd | January 03, 2007 at 08:53 PM
Don't give up. Can you walk during your lunch break perhaps? I do this sometimes and it really helps me clear my head while simultaneously burning some calories.
Posted by: Lindsey | January 03, 2007 at 09:17 PM
You got to go to Jack's birthday party and witness all of his cuteness in person? :-( Tear.
Although I guess it's a good thing I'm a few thousand miles away or else I would totally be hanging over the toilet right now.
Posted by: Silly Hily | January 04, 2007 at 10:47 AM
It's hard to stick with regular exercise when you have very limited free time. I understand completely.
Posted by: Liz | January 04, 2007 at 03:01 PM